LOVE

Thank you for loving me...
Thank you for always be there for me...
Thank you for being my brother/best friend/partner/love...
I love you

MONTASE

Aku berharap tak pernah bertemu denganmu. Supaya aku tak perlu menginginkanmu. Memikirkanmu dalam lamunku. Supaya aku tak mencarimu setiap kali aku rindu.

Supaya aku tak punya alasan untuk mencintaimu. Dan terpuruk ketika akhirnya kau meninggalkanku.

Tapi...,

kalau aku benar-benar tak pernah bertemu denganmu, mungkin aku tak akan pernah tahu seperti apa rasanya berdua saja denganmu. Menikmati waktu bergulir tanpa terasa. Aku juga tak mungkin bisa tahu seperti apa rasanya sungguh-sungguh mencintai... dan dicintai sosok seindah sakura seperti dirimu.

Montase...

Kau diantara seribu sakura

Hanya Isyarat

Aku jatuh cinta pada seseorang yang hanya mampu aku gapai sebatas punggung saja.
Seseorang yang aku sanggup menikmati bayangannya dan tidak akan pernah bisa aku miliki,
seseorang yang hadir bagai bintang jatuh,
sekelebat kemudian menghilang,
sebelum tangan ini sanggup mengejar,
seseorang yang hanya bisa aku kirimi isyarat,
sehalus udara, langit awan atau hujan.
Rectoverso

When God says WAIT

I just read an article pas lagi browsing dan kayaknya pas banget buat saya...
And, here it is

When God says WAIT
Do you know what it means to wait upon the Lord?

Apparently the word “wait” here is not simply “just wait”. It means to hold on and to put all your hope in God alone. I once felt screwed up, and didn’t know what decision I had to make. And yet God said to me… Wait!

It could be so frustrating at times. You are dying to know the end result by a certain time, but you don’t have the remote control to preview the ending. You couldn’t just fast forward through the dull part of life. You still have to go through the waiting period.

Waiting is not easy. It gets too long and you might get so bored. To wait needs the other party to take an action. Your effort wouldn’t make a significant progress toward the results. It is like synchronizing my iPod to my iTunes. I have to sync my mind with God’s mind. My iPod shouldn’t play songs that I don’t have in my iTunes. Similarly, I shouldn’t play my own life scenario while God himself has written down my life scenario long before I was born.

“Wait on the Lord” simply means that I trust my God completely. When I think something is GOOD enough, God might not agree with me. He picks the BEST for me. When my clock ticks ON TIME, God says “I am rushing”. Interestingly, when He says WAIT, I will simply have to wait. I am not good enough to convince Him to change His mind nor to rush Him. God is sure His way is higher and His time is perfect.

After all God knows me inside out. The Scripture says that every moment of my life was laid out before a single day has passed. One day when I reach my destination, I will look back and testify how God has fulfilled my heart desires.

To wrap up, I am not saying all of these from a mere optimistic point of view. I am more than being optimistic. I am claiming God’s promises in my life.

When God says WAIT, I will wait patiently,
When I have to WAIT, I will do it joyfully.

My Beloved

Waktu saya lagi cari-cari gambar inspirasi buat ditaruh di post saya tadi malam, tiba-tiba saya mendapatkan satu gambar yang bertuliskan "Do real man after God's own heart still exists?" Dan kemudian saya jadi penasaran dan membuka blog dimana ada gambar itu. Then, didalam blog itu ada sebuah tulisan dalam bentuk surat. And this letter remind me, that a real man after God's own heart still exist and he wait patiently for his future wife. It's very beautiful and so meaningful for me. Please, take some time to read it ;)

My Beloved,
I want you to know that I'm waiting for you. I can't wait to meet you.
To see your eyes, to see your smile and to know about your life.
Wherever you are right now, whatever you're doing, I'm praying for you.
The thought of you excites me.
I can't wait to serve and pursue Christ along side with you.
I can't wait to hold your hands and just pray with you.
I promise you will always play my guitar and I will sing you songs.
What's even better, I can't wait to worship along side with you with your voices.
I can't wait to love you, adore you, cherish you and take care of you.
I'm excited to know everything about you. Everything that makes YOU.
Every single detail that makes you perfect for me.
I know I will appreciate those thing because it's you.
I want to know what makes you happy, what makes you sad.
What makes your day. Your favorite food, drink, music, movie.
Anything, and everything about you.
So I can serve you, love you and take care of you the best way I can.
I can't wait to touch your face when you laugh, cry, make jokes, being silly.
I can't wait to pray, fast, drink coffee, eat carelessly, watch movie, sleep in till we are both late for work, cooking together, make you breakfast in bed, drive our first car, live our first home, raise our own family, seeking God together as a family.
I can't wait to experience trials and suffering with you, grow close together with God.
I can't wait to hold you close to me at night. Till we fall asleep.
I can't wait to give you my ALL, everything of me to you.
I can't wait to lay myself down for you, just as Christ laid down His life for me.
I long and desire for you my beloved.
I can't wait to meet you and spend the rest of my earthly days with you.
I can't wait to love you.
I can't wait to show you this letter in the future when we finally meet.
But for now, I want you to know
I'm patiently waiting for you...

-Mark Muldez-
Taken from here.

Wasn't that so inspiring? That's definitely that I want my Prince to be like ;)

Let us all pray for our future husbands to grow in their walk with the Lord, and to help them to have hearts after God's own heart.

Carilah pasangan hidup yang hatinya benar-benar melekat pada TUHAN. A man after His own heart. Kalau hatinya melekat sama Tuhan, dia PASTI tahu apa peran dan tanggung jawabnya sebagai seorang suami (which is sebagai kepala keluarga dan pemimpin) dan PASTI akan semaksimal mungkin menjalankan peran itu, meski mungkin aslinya dia, kepribadiannya, atau karakternya, nggak begitu. - Stephanie Zen

Best Quotes of Antologi Rasa

Methinks I could write a volume to you; but all the language on earth would fail in saying how much and with what disinterested passion I am ever yours. - Richard Steele (1707)

 The more you make me suffer, the more I find I love you. - Harris

When you love, there's neither the 'you' nor the 'me'. In that state there's only flame without smoke. - Jiddu Krishnamurti

What sucks about being human is you have to explain your life choices to everyone.

If you make a girl laugh, she likes you. But, if you make her cry, she loves you.

You do not write a novel for praise or thinking of your audience. You write for yourself; you work out between you and your pen the things that intrigue you. - Bret Easton Ellis

Quote of the day

The fact that I am a woman does not make me a different kind of Christian, but the fact that I am a Christian does make me a different kind of woman. - Elisabeth Elliot

TUHAN kase kuat :')

Terbatas TanpaMu

Dalam hidupku tak semua yang kumau

harapan doaku terjadi untukku

Walau ku tahu terlalu mudah bagiMu

untuk memberi jalan bagiku...

Namun jangan rancanganku,

tapi rancanganMu berlaku atasku

Andaikan nanti jawabanMu tak seperti yang aku mau

Ku akan tetap bersyukur memuji namaMu

Biarlah kutahu tanpaMu betapa terbatasnya aku

Sehingga ku akan bergantung penuh padaMu, oh Yesusku

(Biarlah jalanMu terjadi....ohh....)

Andaikan nanti jawabanMu tak seperti yang aku mau

Ku akan tetap bersyukur memuji namaMu

Biarlah kutahu tanpaMu betapa terbatasnya aku

Sehingga ku akan bergantung penuh padaMu, oh Yesusku...

Portrait of A Friend

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts, or fears.
But I can listen to you, and together we will search for answers.

I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain, nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.

I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;

Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;

I can only support you, encourage you, and help you when you ask.

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship, from your values, from me.

I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,

But I can give you the room to change, room to grow, room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,

But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces

and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are.

I can only love you and be your friend.

FABULOUS

On being FABULOUS...

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure

It's our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us,

We ask ourselves,

"Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?"

Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God

Your playing small doesn't serve the world

There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that

other people won't feel insecure around you

We are all meant to shine, as children do

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us

It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give

other people permission to do the same

As we're liberated from our own fear,

our presence automatically liberates others.

-Marianne Williamson-

Totally love this song!

Mandy Moore - Only Hope

There's a song that's inside of my soul

It's the one that I've tried to write 

over and over again 

I'm awake and in the infinite cold

But You sing to me over and over and 

over again 

So I lay my head back down 

And I lift my hands 

And pray to be only Yours 

I pray to be only Yours 

I know now You're my only hope 

Sing to me of the song of the stars 

Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing 

and laughing again 

When it feels like my dreams are so far 

Sing to me of the plans that You have 

for me over again 

I give You my apathy 

I'm giving You all of me 

I want Your symphony 

Singing in all that I am 

At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

The Past....

Marcell - Peri Cintaku

Didalam hati ini hanya satu nama

yang ada di tulus hatiku ini

Kesetiaan yang indah takkan tertandingi

hanyalah dirimu satu peri cintaku

Benteng begitu tinggi sulit untuk ku dapat

huuuuu

Aku untuk kamu, kamu untuk aku

Namun semua apa mungkin iman kita yang berbeda

Tuhan memang satu, kita yang tak sama

Haruskah aku lantas pergi meski cinta takkan bisa pergi

Benteng begitu tinggi sulit untuk ku gapai

huuuuuu

Aku untuk kamu, kamu untuk aku

Namun semua apa mungkin iman kita yang berbeda

Tuhan memang satu, kita yang tak sama

Haruskah aku lantas pergi meski cinta takkan bisa pergi

Bukankah cinta anugerah berikan aku kesempatan

Tuk menjaganya sepenuh jiwa oooh

(Aku untuk kamu, kamu untuk aku

Namun semua apa mungkin iman kita yang berbeda)

Tuhan memang satu, kita yang tak sama

Haruskah aku lantas pergi meski cinta takkan bisa pergi

(Aku untuk kamu, kamu untuk aku

Namun semua apa mungkin iman kita yang berbeda)

Tuhan memang satu, kita yang tak sama

Haruskah aku lantas pergi meski cinta takkan bisa pergi....